The Day My Motherhood Changed

Life, some experiences truly define you as a before and after. Hearing the words your child is gone is one of those moments. You never forget who told you, how it was said or the denial that it just isn't true. You never forget that aching in your heart. It felt to me as if I was having a heart attack every single day. I want to say this before I share some of my very early experiences with Jared after her transitioned because I want to make sure everyone understands that even though my son is still with me everyday its still different. I am so thankful that I feel and hear from him and he continues to be my teacher.

My oldest son Thomas was very close with his brother Jared. You can even see from this picture them sharing this chair and this was right after Jared wrapped his arms around his brother with a big bear hug. Thomas lost his brother, his friend and he lost who his mom was before his brother died. We are all different, changed, scarred but somehow we all go on. Loving a little harder. being a bit more grateful for the memories and really thinking about the importance of our exsistence on this earthly plain.

Why are we all here anyway? When Jared told me our time was not done together and we helped so many people when he was here and we will still help so many more I just nodded ok and listened. I couldn't believe how clear his voice was and how infectious his laugh still was. He was still here. Thats when my quest began to understand why! Jared took me to places in my dreams where he started showing me why and that we all sign up for these lessons before we are born. Boy I cannot wait to find out why I chose these lessons and I am sure many of you agree.

Jared had really made me reflect on what I am still doing here? Why am I here in the first place? Why did I pick these lessons? My family, my jobs, my friends. These are all experiences we have chosen.

If you have experienced any kind of grief in your life spend sometime to understand it, get to know it, sit with it. As scary as it is to feel it will be ok. Ask your loved ones to show you the way and they will. The truth is they are still right here and after all my studies and listening to many people who have experienced near death experiences they say its like you are just walking into the next room. Picture your loved one walking into the next room. Knock on that door and have a conversation with them! Energy never dies and they are with you celebrating life events, milestones in your life and cheering you on.

If you would like to hear about the first moments I knew Jared had transitioned before we got the call listen to my interview here with Light The Day Podcast https://youtu.be/Q2Pbxn6HPTU?feature=shared and if you feel moved to check out my website https://www.sendingspiritslove.com/

Love and Light,

Lisa and Jared